Strength Can Be Found In Reading Out

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​This old gal…

Is shocked at how 36 years of teaching confidence…can be null and voided…by one Friday the 13th freak out of control event…panic set in thinking about going again on Monday…fear of being reassigned…fear of the unknown…fear…of being a failure…

Had a day to back out…just a click on the app would do the trick…but not going…would admit defeat…not going…would mean being a quitter…not going…would end this beloved teaching career…in an ugly way…

And so…this old gal put her big girl panties on…and showed up at the school…bright and early Monday morning…and the day…was perfect…a 180 from that freaky Friday…had hall duty…worked with little readers…made a sweet new reading teacher friend along the way…felt…like teacher me again…

And so it is…fear…can rear its ugly head when you least expect it…panic…can rip confidence…to shreds…but strength can be found…in reaching out…if not for those daughters of mine…answering frenzied texts all weekend…that husband of mine…saying it would be ok…this old gal…may have just…succumbed…

And missed out…on getting to do…what she’s missed most…
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And that family of mine…agrees…