It Will Be Ok

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This old gal…

Is familiar with the being away from home panic…it’s nothing new…just hasn’t been this bad in a while…

Goes back…way way back…little me going to sleepovers…little me crying at bedtime wanting to go home…

Younger me choosing slumber parties carefully…best of the best friends only…forging through the panic…

Young adult me going to conferences…a weekend at a hotel with colleagues…don’t want to go don’t want to go don’t want to go…go anyway…

It’s all tied into control…if little me is gone…she doesn’t know what she’ll come home to…if young me is gone…she can’t try to control the environment…to keep peace…

If young adult me is gone…you can’t control when those around you who seem healthy and well adjusted…might just snap…

And so that little girl panic rears it’s head when old gal me leaves her comfort zone…

But there’s that thing called exposure therapy…face the demon…the traffic…the strangers…the unknown…

Because sometimes in life you have to be brave…face your fears…rational or irrational…and have faith it will be ok…

And it will be…one way or another…it will be…
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And little me…would agree…