I'd Wanna Be Next To You

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This old gal...
Was this many years old when she realized that people don't listen to the radio anymore...maybe just young people, but probably most people that aren't techno-ignoramus old folks who apparently are still living in the dark ages...

Mentioned a song on the radio to one of those daughters of mine, who shared that she never listens to the radio—that obsolete thing of the past...she listens to her playlist, instead...

And who can blame her...some songs seem to play endlessly throughout the day...the week...the year, even...must have heard 'Die With a Smile' by Lady Gaga and Bruno Mars a million times driving to Texas...all the way down...all the way back...then all the way down the next year...and all the way back again...

Maybe wouldn't have noticed if the lyrics weren't so raw...haunting even...certainly not a romantic vibe...but one that always made radio-listening-me ponder, hearing those words...

'If the world was ending, I'd wanna be next to you'...

You who?...Who would that you be, for me, if the world was ending?

And in spite of the creepiness the whole picture evokes...there's something calming about it all...because finally, after all these years...this old gal has found her safe space...

Didn't have one growing up...never knowing when that mother of mine was going to blow...always on edge...walking on egg shells...

Then moved on to being mama-me...vowing to break the cycle...doing all she could to CREATE a safe space—to BE a safe space for those chicks of hers...

And now we've come full circle...because if the world was ending, I'd wanna be next to you—some how, some way, oh daughters of mine...and on the other side—that grenade catching man of steel...

Cuz to be honest...if the world was ending and we were all together...nothing could stop us...from going out with a bang...
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And that husband of mine...agrees...